People who passed away in front of me and moved my heart.

I always wanted to know and count all those people who passed away in front of me.

1. My dada when I was just 7.
2. Baby Apa ( my neighbour ).
3. Nesar dada. ( baby apa's father ).
4. My Badi nani.
5. Rashid mamu.
6. Divya Bharti. ( an actress died in 1990 )
7. Khalda khala of humera tannery.
8. Mrs. Ishtiaq  Polo died of cancer.
9. Mrs Shamshul Hai.( Nov, 2010).
10.Mrs Sikander. 2010.
11. Jb. Itrat qaiyyum Sb.
12. Jb. Iqbal Hussain Sb.( api's FIL.)
13. Seraj Dada. 2010.
14. Shahina aunty ( sis of Shabana aunty )
15. Munna mamu ( my MIL mamu )
16. Muneer Mamu ( my MIL mamu )
!7. Tanveer. ( Muneer mamu's son, died of stomach cancer )
18. Daughter of Main Sb. ( kidney failure )
19. Eldest bahu of Dabeer Dadi. ( cancer )
20. Father of Shadab. ( SIL od Shamshul hai, road acciddent )
21. Son in Law of Munna manu second daughter.
22. Father of Shabana aunty.
23. Brother of Shabana aunty.
24. MIL od badi phuphi.
24. Husband of anjum aunty ( our neighbour in Damzen Lane)
25. Brother of Tarannum ( within 2 days of dysentry )
26. Shamshad Dada.
27. Engineer Chacha of allied 4 no.
28. Chacha of Allied 5 no.
29. Feroz khan ( actor )
30. Shammi Kapoor. ( actor )
31. Jagjit Singh. ( Singer)
32. My Father in law. ( 31.12.12)
33. My Husband Nani. (08.01.13)
34. Dev Anand. ( actor)
35. Jaspal Bhatti ( comedian)
36.

How I found my best friend.

The difference between me and my elder sister is only 1.5 years. Our's was a joint family and my mom was always occupied with household chores and we were brought up more under the guidance of our grandma.Our family was an orthodox one and only because of my mother's persuasion we were admitted in an English medium school.

My grandma was a stereotype conformist and never encouraged us to take part in any kind of extra curricular activities saying that girls should be more homely and these things were not considered good in our society.

Both we sisters were poles apart. She was very enterprising, ambitious, daring and a rebel and I was very docile, submitting, placid and above all loved to be in the best book of my grandma.For me it was like earning laurels.We were told that while walking on the road we should only gaze on the ground and should not look all around. We should not talk to friends on road. We should not eat on the road side. From school we were not allowed to go to picnics or excursions and were even restricted from taking part in the elocution contest and my sis loved to do all these. I being the favourite of my grandma used to report all this and my grandma continued her quibbling over my sis. Due to this my sister hated me and we hardly used to converse with each other.

At the age of 16 my sister got engaged but I still continued to tattle about her and disgrace her in the family. Then one day my mother counselled me and explained me that I was wrong in my part to constantly put surveillance in my sister's life and by doing this I was making her life a hell and will loose my sister forever. I loved my sister a lot and I realised how I had made myself a constant pain for my sister whose only fault was to experience the world around. My sister acknowledged my changed behaviour and forgave me with an open heart. 

Today I am 29 years old and my sister is my best friend and a person I can count upon.She is always there to protect me in my thick and thin times. I thank my mom that she intervened in our relation and showed me the right path before I could have lost my sister forever in my life. I have also learnt not to keep partial attitudes towards our children this will only make them more offensive.

24th January, 2011.

Today I had called one of my far cousin who is probably younger than me and has recently lost her husband as he died due to failure of his kidneys. She has a son aged 2.5 years and is 8 months pregnant.

Although till date I have not conversed with her but today when i spoke to her she ended crying over the phone. I felt terrible.She told me her son always inquired about his father and asked about his arrival. Her voice was trembling and her words not clear.I felt a deep bruise in my heart after speaking to her. I told her mom that I was ready to help her in all the ways I could ( as they are financially weak too ). Her mom had a constant fear of her having a c- section delivery this time too as the previous one and the fear of the cost made her panic. I comforted her and gave assurance of my help in the best way I could and hanged over the phone.

Tears dropped from my eye and I knew none could understand the pain of a young widow who now has the complete responsibility of raising herself , her child and also the awaiting newborn.

I thanked Allah that he has blessed me with a family and I prayed to Allah for the long life of my Husband. I have an extremely loving husband, MasahaAllah ( All praise to Allah ) and I wish to take my last breath in his arms.I simply cannot imagine my life without him. Allah tests his believers either by bestowing him with all his desires or by taking away everything from him. May Allah grant us all patience to bear all the ups and downs of life, Ameen!

May Allah grant me with the ability and prosperity so that I could help others and I seek refuge from Allah from the dependency on anyone or anything other than Allah alone, Ameen!